Blood saturated the walls and covered the floor, just enough to make it dangerously slippery. It felt warm and sticky on my bare feet, though. I took a step, careful not to slide. The blood didn't bother me; I didn't know whose it was. The smell, however, did. It was nauseating. I spied a piece of paper on the nightstand on the opposite wall. In fact, the nightstand was the only piece of furniture in the room. As ornate as it was, it did not seem to make the room feel any less empty. The light flickered, a threat that it would blow out at any given moment.
And so it began.
I took another step, adjusted my footing, then continued at a steady
I knew there was nothing but pain
if I traveled down this road.
Yet I let curiosity get the
better of my sensibility.
I inched closer and closer,
not realizing there was an icy ledge.
Then I slipped down that slope so fast,
I become completely engulfed in you.
I tried to throw the breaks.
I tried to gain control.
In the end, I found there was no hope.
You had my full attention, my interest,
and could easily have my heart.
The only thing I've managed to
keep safe inside of me so far.
But today I noticed something
and now I realize, there are
rocks at the bottom. And I
will not survive.
I will come out damaged, broken
beyond repair.
With lit
I long to be around you.
I find myself making excuses to see you.
Dying on the inside,
Every second I can’t see your smile.
Love how you make me laugh.
The way we’ve suddenly become close.
Like maybe in another life,
We were something more.
But I believe we both have secrets,
Hidden in the dark.
I think we share a secret,
Lying in our hearts.
Lying to our hearts.
Are we just playing games?
I feel there’s something more here but,
Maybe I’m insane.
Reading too much into it.
Seeing more than what’s between the lines.
Still, I can’t deny my heart flutter
Every time I see you smile.
But I’ll tell myself we
And the sun glowed a deep red,
just enough to color the inside
of the room a deep mahogany,
stripes of color on the walls.
And the clouds formed in the distance,
just enough to cradle the sunset.
And as if by magic, the rain fell down,
undisturbed by any wind,
undisturbed by any thoughts.
And I watched in great longing,
wondering what the world has
left for me to witness,
for even if I can not leave this room,
I can see everything just outside.
I watch as the color fades from the sky,
and the mahogany turns a brilliant lapis,
and then to nothing.
As the clouds reflect the last gasp of magenta,
As the world fades to black, the
Just step away
Walk away
Sometimes
I find myself
Tearing the headphones
From my ears
Because even the music
Breaks my solitude
Don't come near
And don't say a word
Sometimes
I leave this house
And I walk
And I always find myself
Where I began
At the edge of water
Replaying memories
Is it too much to ask?
I'd like to be alone...
Sometimes
I go crazy from having nobody
Because I forget
The amazing feeling
Of just being
Alone
Don't look at me
Leave no acknowledgement
Sometimes
I'm in my own world
Where things make sense
And it's so simple
My own escape
From these surroundings
Leave me be
Let me bask in solitude
Happiness is an emotion I was never meant to capture
Every beat produces another microscopic fracture
And my heart is a toy because it’s played with and abused
Ripped up and torn apart thought it’s never even used
Tiny pieces falling, falling all the same
Losing all the meaning that was tattooed in my veins
Each fragment is calling, calling me by name
Sending shivers through my spine as I fight to break the chains
Showing me the mirror when I don’t know who to blame
My Mind Is A Graveyard And My Body Is A Scar. by Invoking, literature
Literature
My Mind Is A Graveyard And My Body Is A Scar.
There’s constantly something wrong with me
I can’t look in the mirror for fear I’ll see
Another part of me that I can’t let be
I want to cut it out of my soul
And just live with the gaping hole
Take control and choose to lose
The part of my heart where the insides bruised
I didn’t fall; I was caught by the lonely, crushing darkness
Of this I’m sure; it was there more than you ever were
I don’t know why the love I need
Is flowing in the blood I bleed
Yes, I’m confused and, yes, I’m a mess
Frustrations magnified by stress
I don’t know why I pushed so far
New cuts cover where the old